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For a time, this meant that outwardly they should actually behave indifferently toward each another, while inwardly remaining friends. The reason Baba did not wish them to be so close was that it gave rise to partiality. It would greatly upset Baba if, due to partiality, some mistake of a mandali member were kept hidden from him by one of his friends.
For example, on the 18th, Baba took Vishnu severely to task in regards to Rustom, warning him, "Now you too are siding with Rustom. Padri and Pendu are his old friends because they have past connection with him from previous births. But why do you want to fall into that pit also?"
Baba concluded, "True friendship consists in not hiding the faults of one's friends, so that they will be freed of their drawbacks. Partiality here is not helpful!"
Baba later remarked to the mandali, "Toka is good, but my heart is not happy. At the Taj Mahal Hotel [in Bombay] one is surrounded with all comforts and good food. But if you get a stomachache, you would be unable to enjoy it. In the same way, despite everything being suitable here, my heart is not happy. As a doctor advises a change of place for one's health, my doctor tells me to change my environment because my heart is unhappy."
On 19 June, the schoolboys, Ali Akbar and Ramaji, broke one of the established orders, causing Baba to complain, "What is the use of remaining here when the mandali and boys disregard my wishes? How could I be happy when I have to pamper all, fulfilling their whims and patting everyone just to get him to do his duty?"
Since moving to Toka, Ali Akbar and Ramaji had been causing much trouble in the ashram. Baba was quite fond of both boys, but because of their disobedience and their inattentive and indifferent attitude, Baba asked the mandali to prepare an estimate of expenses necessary for moving the ashram from Toka. Since they had been staying there for less than two weeks, the mandali were naturally shocked that Baba was thinking of leaving already.
Despite their behavior, both Ali Akbar and Ramaji received special attention from Baba. On the 19th, Baba explained certain matters to Ramaji for over two hours, emphasizing to him, "Obedience to a Master's orders is most important, and love is only born when my orders are obeyed. Remember this: Even in the midst of the highest state of intoxication, let your head always be on the Master's feet! If you follow this, you will turn into a touchstone."
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